Who's Got the Crack

Choke me. Tease me. Hit me.

2012-02-17T14:02:00.007-05:00

NAP then SUICIDE.

2012-02-15T16:40:00.001-05:00

2.14.12

2012-02-14T08:56:00.002-05:00

To my beloved domestic partner:

Happy Valentine's Day to the one I:

Burp with
Wash dishes with
Eat mac n' cheese in bed with
Drink whiskey/diets with
Go to CVS with
Eat 4:00 AM Subway with
Talk about the zodiac 24/7
Throw keggers with
Cuddle with
Am potentially moving into a frat house with....

I love you.

I hate the world today.

2012-02-13T23:54:00.001-05:00

Just another Tuesday

Girlz.

2012-02-09T22:29:00.002-05:00

Oh I wish I had a sun tan.

I wish I had a pizza & a bottle of wine.

I wish I had a beach house.

Then we could make a big fire every night.

Instead I'm just crazy.

I'm totally mad.

Yeah I'm just crazy...I'm fucked in the head.

Calabria 2007

2012-02-06T22:17:00.003-05:00

Naughty girls need love too.

2012-02-03T11:53:00.011-05:00

Fine line.

2012-01-30T12:45:00.001-05:00

What it feels like...

Kiss me. Strip me. Tease me.

2012-01-27T14:42:00.006-05:00

Obsessed.

2012-01-26T17:27:00.002-05:00

#help

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I want I want I want

2012-01-26T15:28:00.003-05:00

Some things will never change.

2012-01-25T09:57:00.001-05:00

Can't get warm.

2012-01-24T13:45:00.003-05:00

Shoe obsessed.

2012-01-23T16:49:00.000-05:00

On repeat.

2012-01-17T10:40:00.001-05:00

Que reste-t-il de ce que l'on a pensé et non dit ?

2012-01-17T00:21:00.004-05:00

Que reste-t-il de ce que l'on a pensé et non dit ?

ROA.

2012-01-12T13:36:00.010-05:00

DSLs, Rules of Attraction.

ORL.

2012-01-10T13:38:00.004-05:00

I miss

2012-01-08T23:50:00.001-05:00

These days. Nostalgic.

Just an average Sunday.

2012-01-08T18:30:00.004-05:00

I'll believe it when I see it!

I am positive I found you for a reason.

2012-01-04T16:08:00.005-05:00

Don't save me.

I wake up, it’s all gone. Your characteristic seemed alright.

I wish I had stayed at home. You’re so disappointed every time.

At home here, I need you to tell me all the wrong I’ve done.
I wish you’d believe me, I’m alright in my life. The backyard is empty when you’re gone.
I see you way out there...You’re standing on a lonely road.

Suppose that I said that I had lied just when you said that you were?
I want to die right now.
She wakes up and then leaves. Your characteristic staircase smile.
He’s coming; and not naive...Remember who your friends are.
You’re so disappointed when you try, but don’t forget the ones you love.
Promise I’ll make it in that hip-hop video. The bad words are endless when you call.
I see you way out there...You’re standing on a lonely road.

Suppose I had said that I had lied, just when you said that you were? I never asked to be here.

Just A 3D Book Of Breasts..............

2012-01-04T15:06:00.000-05:00

// NBD.

We will never speak again.

2012-01-03T23:35:00.004-05:00

"I do not believe you realize the damage you have done."

I know I know I know.

2011-12-29T19:42:00.004-05:00

XXX-RATED!

I want.

2011-12-28T16:49:00.000-05:00

“I want a woman who can sit me down, shut me up, tell me ten things I don’t already know, and make me laugh. I don’t care what you look like, just turn me on."

Henry Rollins

Be honest.

2011-12-27T12:01:00.014-05:00

I just wanna cut when we together.

2011-12-22T17:10:00.008-05:00

Merry XXXMas.

We all want the same thing.

2011-12-21T16:21:00.006-05:00

Must have.

2011-12-21T09:07:00.001-05:00

Buy 4 me. Thnx. http://www.indcsn.com/shop/beanies/kill-yourself-beanie-cream/

Totally Undatable.

2011-12-20T14:41:00.009-05:00

Tom Ford.

2011-12-20T14:28:00.003-05:00

Advertising. //

XXX-Rated! //

Jo Jo.

2011-12-19T23:06:00.000-05:00

When you're
in her I know
I'm in your
head.

On point.

Some like it rough.

2011-12-19T14:50:00.014-05:00

I'm getting everything I ask for.

2011-12-15T14:28:00.010-05:00

Straight up.

2011-12-13T17:39:00.011-05:00

Bus ride blog post.

2011-12-09T11:19:00.002-05:00

Eatin' a granola bar on the way to see my 2 BFFs in NYC.

Sure, sure.

2011-12-08T16:21:00.007-05:00

I just haven't realized it yet.

That awkward moment when I Google "I WOULD HAVE MADE YOU IMMORTAL." to make sure it was from Shakespeare in Love....and my blog was 3rd on the search list. So. I guess I need to stop blogging the same quotes.

Take my underwear

2011-12-06T15:23:00.013-05:00

off with your teeth.

A list of things I should remember.

Time heals.
Sunrise is a constant
Salt water stings.
I am worth all of it.
Driving calms.
Books finish.
Some boys do not.
Locked doors can be unlocked.
Stars die all the time.

Number 14: Kitty = vagina

2011-12-05T13:59:00.001-05:00

20 SEXTING ACRONYMZ:

Here are just a few of the many (many!) examples of shorthand that teens and tweens use to sext:

53X = sex
8 = oral sex
Banana = penis
CD9 = code 9, parents are around
P911 = parent alert
CU46 = see you for sex
GNOC = get naked on cam
GYPO = get your pants off
IMEZYRU = I'm easy, are you?
IPN = I'm posting naked
ITS = intense text sex
IWSN = I want sex now
J/O = jerking off
Kitty = vagina
LH6 = let's have sex
LHU = let's hook up
NFS = need for sex
PRON = porn
TDTM = talk dirty to me
RUH = are you horny?

Guess I really need to begin using these more frequently to keep up with the trends....

I do not sleep.

2011-12-05T13:09:00.010-05:00

Can you get me off your mind? I hated this city before you came here.

So let go and move on. We're strangers, we're not friends.

I was only wearing my underwear.

2011-12-05T11:04:00.005-05:00

Last night I dreamt that you showed up. On my front steps... It was after midnight. I was washing dishes. My dress didn't fit. You explained you needed to talk. I am a really great listener. You offered to drive me to New York. I said that I'd believe it when I see it. We went downstairs. I had to change. You said we should smoke and watch a movie that would make you upset. I was only wearing my underwear. You said you had never seen something so beautiful. I don't trust you, but you're always there. How can I ignore that this is sex without touching? Someone is always doing the chasing.

I have been overwhelmed in the past, but have a feeling that I will never be in the future.

This morning I dreamt that you showed up. It was 10:00 PM. I had just gotten home from the gym. You said you were there to pick me up. You explained that your day had been so bad that there had to be someone who would listen well enough to make you feel better. I was tired. I needed a shower. You asked me if I ever had that feeling where you realize that you have no one. Both of your room mates were gone for the night. I said I needed to shower. You said I could do it at your place. We left. You apologized. I showered in your bathroom. I sing in the shower. My hair was wet. I wore your t shirt. I was only wearing my underwear. You held my face in your hands. We watched a movie. You shotgunned me. It was dark. I got you off. We drank beer from bottles. The morning car ride put me back to sleep. You looked sharp. After you dropped me off, I stood on the sidewalk and watched you drive away. I will never see you again.

How to be

2011-12-05T09:17:00.003-05:00

I live in a basement. There are no windows. Occasionally, the lights go out due to poor wiring, and I am plunged into darkness. I go whole days without ever seeing a ray of sunlight. It’s like living in a post-apocalyptic underground city like Zion or Ember. It’s like the movie Descent, only much longer and with wifi.

I always want to stay up past bedtime, an hour later than the previous night, a little later, just a little later. To push past sleepiness, I’ll put on a movie or start reading at a time I should fall asleep, and I will do so while guzzling chocolaty coffee beverages and devouring sugary baked goods. I imagine Batman did something similar when he first established his crimefighting hours — he is the night and so am I.

A nocturnal life is a solitary one. Everyone reasonable has departed for dreamland, and the only ones left awake are the homeless people and weirdoes, wandering the streets like the last survivors of some worldwide holocaust. Once these people disappear into their bedrooms, any behavior — no matter how strange and unhealthy — is unquestioned and uncriticized.

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I'm a bad bitch.

2011-12-05T01:29:00.008-05:00

How to stop.

2011-12-05T00:57:00.003-05:00

There are things we think in our heads, but we would never say them out loud.

Sometimes I feel like it's all totally worth it.

I'm doing this for something. For something bigger. Something great.

And I put a lot of time into it, and it actually makes me tired.

Pleasantly tired.

And the thought spent becomes a worthwhile action I do daily.

I can't get it out of my head. And I stop trying. I embrace it.

I breathe faster.

I eat less.

I run longer.

Then most times.... I stop.

And I say out loud "am I doing all of this for nothing?"

And I realize that my fear has become a reality. I can't let go.

It is always on my mind. And I am never tired.

The amount of time I waste on it adds up. It is way too much.

I can't stop.

I eat less.

I run longer.

I sleep never.

I design more.

I can't breathe. I gasp, sometimes.

I apologize constantly.

I am never tired. I am never hungry.

My dreams blur with reality and I stop trying to figure things out.

I don't know how to give up.

How to stop.

In your hand?

2011-12-04T15:05:00.000-05:00

Promise we'll stay the same.

2011-12-01T10:12:00.010-05:00

It would not have been a normal day if I had not:

Listened to 'Do Ya Thang' 20 times in row.
Had 3 12oz coffees.
Sat with my knees up at my desk like a 2 year old.
Said fuck out loud.
Had a panic attack when my phone rings.
Played a song and teared up halfway through.
Ripped off a cuticle BlackSwan style.